Editor's note: an ordinary Tibetan young man, a young lama practicing Buddhism, who nearly set himself on fire and was about to be abandoned by the instigators. What role does the "Tibet government-in-exile" play in this case? What are the lies and the truth behind the flames? From today on, the China Tibet Online will release the story of a young Buddhist, a potential self-immolator enticed by the book titled "Repentance-from Dharamsala" written by Xiaolin.

Born in Qinghai Province in northwest China, Gyatso, whose secular name is Rigzin, had never thought that he had embarked on a path with no return since he left home at the age of 19 and became a monk in Tsangar Monastery, in Tongde County, Hainan Tibetan Autonomous Prefecture of Qinghai Province. Since then, he has always dreamed to be a respectable monk through hard work.

The 12 years spent in Tsangar Monastery was the happiest time in Gyatso’s life. Learning from the masters of the sutra, chatting with his monk friends and occasionally going home to see his families, Gyatso had no worries at that time.

The quiet life in Tsangar Monastery cut him off from the boring outside world. Then his idea and goal were to learn the scriptures well and further improve his knowledge. He enjoyed the life there very much and took the Tsangar Monastery as his home.

But life changed suddenly when Gyatso received letters from his fellow villagers or monk friends who have been to India before. In these letters they always boasted what a wonderful life they were living in India, the most important of which was they could "learn a lot of things and enhance the degree! "

With the dream of "being a learned and respectable monk"，Gyatso finally went to the so-called "Big World"- Dharamshala, a small hill station in Himachal Pradesh, India, which was also the headquarters of the "Tibet government-in-exile".

Always dreaming of going outside for further study and bathing in the Buddhist compassion, Gyatso could never have thought that he learned nothing about the true essence of Buddhism but almost lost his life there.

Dharamshala is not a perfect Arcadia but an abyss, where the scriptures were replaced by "works" of Dalai Lama advocating "Tibet Independence", and fictive films inciting self-immolation instead of preaching Buddhist doctrines. Like many young monks who went to there, Gyatso gradually lost himself by the strong impact of the "brainwashed propaganda".

At Dharamshala, Gyatso took part in hunger strikes for three times under the incitation of the "Tibet government-in-exile", and was entrusted with an important post at the third time. The "rare hero" who was enchanted by inciting words had to "do something big".

The "Tibet government-in-exile" had elaborately designed all kinds of self-immolation schemes for Gyatso, but the first two frantic schemes fell through because of the strict precautions of the Indian police and the visit of American leaders.

Gyatso was determined to complete the "great cause" as he didn’t want to be ridiculed for his failure. Finally, he got another chance. He was sent to Lhasa to commit self-immolation on the Jokhang Temple Square for the "independent cause".

From the first time when he got the "passion" for self-immolation, to the second time when he felt fooled, and then to the third time when he came back to commit self-immolation in Tibet, Gyatso had embarked on a path with no return without any other choice.