Editor's note: an ordinary Tibetan young man, a young lama practicing Buddhism, who nearly set himself on fire and was about to be abandoned by the instigators. What role does the "Tibet government-in-exile" play in this case? What are the lies and the truth behind the flames? From today on, the China Tibet Online will release the story of a young Buddhist, a potential self-immolator enticed by the book titled "Repentance-from Dharamsala" written by Xiaolin.

A lean figure, dark skin, plus the regular facial features with wide glabellas and prominent brows, Gyatso is an image of an ordinary nomad living in northern Tibet. It is really hard to link him with a "self-immolator".

Born in a herdsman family in Qinghai Province, Gyatso, whose secular name is Rigzin began his monk life at the age of 19 in Tsangar Monastery, in Tongde County, Hainan Tibetan Autonomous Prefecture of Qinghai Province.

Paying respect for Buddha since childhood, Gyatso has always been interested in "tsema" of Buddhism as he has been willing to learn. After being told there were more eminent monks researching in "tsema" in India than China, Gyatso decided to sneak to Dharamsala ignoring the opposition of the family.

Brought up in the isolated hometown, Gyatso didn’t know what formalities are needed to go abroad and he had to pay for "help".

Thus, after paying the fee, Gyatso was herded in a house near the Sera Monastery in Lhasa together with other scores of men who wanted to go abroad by Laben, the man who would smuggle them into India in January1999.

Several of the stowaways were teenage children, who came from poor farmer’s families. Their parents borrowed money to send them abroad for a better life as they were told that life in India was much better than in Tibet.

Some of them sneaked to Dharamsala because they couldn’t stay at home for their bad learning performances or some other reasons.

Looking at those shivering children in the cold weather, Gyatso knew some of them might never see their families again.

At this time, he couldn't help thinking of his father, but what he could do was to pray for him silently.

Under the instruction of Laben, Gyatso and other stowaways furtively crossed the border and sneaked into Nepal. Gyatso was too scared to know that how he ran through the bridge linking China and Nepal.

After crossing the border, the first stop for the stowaways was the "Reception Office of the Tibetan government- in- exile in Nepal", a three- story building shaped like steps in Katmandu, the capital of Nepal.

There, Gyatso and other stowaways were brought into separate rooms to answer questions.

After explaining his family conditions and the reason why he sneaked into Nepal, Gyatso was asked some "connotative" questions.

He was asked to tell how terrible the life was in China and to list some examples of how "Hans bully Tibetans".

Gyatso was bewildered as he had never met such issues before in his hometown. He didn’t know whether he should make up one and only said he did not know.